Wedding dreaming

So with all of A.B.'s wedding stuff over, I thought life would start being normal. I was settling into the new year just fine, when over the weekend I had the strangest dream, it was a wedding dream, where Skinny and I were getting married. It was like a movie... going thru the whole process,from picking a dress to a shower and then the actual wedding. Now I have had these kind of dreams in the past but since last year when we had to stop planning the engagement and everything, they really have not bee that frequent or as vivid. I have thought about getting married, but it was always in the back of my mind, something far off till the situation with Skinny was resolved. Don't get me wrong I still look at the bridal magazines and web sites.... thinking about the dress and everything.... but it has just been a "dream" something in the future. I figure the more information I have the easier it will be to put things together. Anyway getting back to this dream i had the other night. It was so real... i mean down to me waking up and thinking..."am I married???? or not?" So i said something to Skinny about it and he just kind of looked at me like I was crazy and said... " it will happen soon enough". So I kind of just put it in the back of my mind again. Well then Skinny called me last night and we got to talking about everything... and he said he was thinking about getting married a lot lately.... and that he is going to make a huge effort to make it work this year or at least get engaged. I was in shock...... I mean with everything that is going on with the Fort and not knowing when he will be coming home exactly.... he is thinking about getting engaged. So I told him that we will see how the next couple of months go...... since I don't want to get my hopes up.... even though secretly I was jumping for joy. He talked about how, when he saw my brother up there with Big L.... he wished it could have been us... how he knows if he hadn't made a lot of mistakes, it would have been us there. I agree with him, but I know that things happen for a reason, and our relationship is so much better now. I won't want to be in the situation we were a year ago..... I'm not even sure we would have gotten married if it was the same.
Once I hung up the phone with him.... I really started to think that it might happen this year..... that I really might be planning a wedding soon.... my mind then started to race with all the things I wanted to do..... like should I have a wedding in Iowa.... or should we just run off some where and get married.... it was strange, since I was here a year ago and had totally different feelings about the situation. It's a different kind of excitment.... more of a focusing on the actually marriage then the wedding. Maybe it's because we just got done with all the stress of my brother's wedding.... or because I know that the process won't be as smooth as I want it to be... or because I'm just in shock that Skinny is really thinking about it... now. So who knows... maybe in the next couple of months I will have to change my blog to " Wedding menu" or something..... I guess we will see.